Blossoms in the Rain

 Last Tuesday we discovered that we were expecting our first child. And my Love and I were thrilled! We tested again, in all having four positive pregnancy tests. We were so excited to welcome another child into the world! We went to see my dad and told him before going to see my Love's parents, and siblings. Everyone was overjoyed at our news. Close friends were told, and we were busy sharing the news.  However, Friday, September 27th, I began cramping and bleeding, though lightly. And by Saturday, I was fully miscarrying our baby. It was a long, hard, painful day, and my Love was away, desperately looking for cramp bark to try to stop the miscarriage. Sadly, the baby, then only the size of a poppy seed, slipped away. A blood test on Sunday confirmed that we had lost the baby.  It has been difficult, not only physically, but emotionally and spiritually. We are grieving. Although we only knew of our sweet Rosebud for a short time, we still mourn her loss. (Yes, the b...

 My last blog post, I had posted about facing life's U-turns. I was struggling with the ideas of singleness, and wondering how to glorify God in the midst of being alone.  Welp, SURPRISE! A little over two years later and I'm happily married to a man who knows and loves the Lord, and who treasures me more than I could have ever imagined!  It's been a hard road to get here. Many sorrows, and some surprising joys, not the least of which being my dear husband.  Ok, first updates to bring you all up to speed: Since I last posted, my mother went through her second round of cancer, and in March she went home to be with the Lord. It was a difficult few years. The cancer had metastasized to her brain and towards the end, she was very childlike. It was a big struggle, but our church helped us immensely, and I'm so grateful to God that they were there! We could not have made it without their help!  In July, I married the love of my life, Mr. O (♪O is for the only one I se...

We all grow up dreaming of what we want to be. Parents and family friends ask us when we're young, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" "I want to be a dinosaur!" "I want to be a dancer!" "I want to be an astronaut!" Enthusiastic answers, beaming smiles; we know what we want.  And then we grow a little older, and our dreams change. We learn what it costs to do those dreams, and sometimes they're just not possible, and most of us switch to other dreams. By high school, our dreams and hopes for the future become more specialized. Some of us choose to be beauticians, some of us choose to be athletes, some want to be chefs, others want to get into science or medicine.  And then things just...happen. The internship fails. There's no money for schooling. A tragic injury or illness. And what you thought life would be like just never happens.  I thought I would be a wife and mother. I thought that by now I'd be married and have chil...